一种特别的感觉

以前也没那么彷徨.......
一定要找到那种安排好的生活,可是人生是永远都会发生特别事件,
不能把安排好的事情都一一随着喜欢而发生.

都静止了....
都不知道如何了....

唯有等待时间的到来.....

唯有他会告诉我答案...

Maybe i should...........or think again properly

Three months pass like superb fast.....i already become an OL. As i always think that sometimes office job is bored and just sit in the office for long hours.And my mind thinking is still the same . Although i try to tell myself to make myself love my job.But i started to think back whether i should quit my job or not. But every time due to the high risk of cannot get any job and took back my idea in my mind.

Last time when in college study, i choose kitchen and because i love cooking and i like move around and time will pass very fast. But i work in office but not kitchen, i feel like such a waste that did not use what i studied. i love to have lots of work task to do rather then just sit there and do nothing .It make me feel like i am an useless person. And i feel like people will think that i am a lazy person and keep on online and received salary .

i just cant stand anymore.........